Sometimes I don’t know what is going on with my life. What will be happened after I enrolled in my PhD, etc. It’s seemed clear because no one knows the future. Sometimes overthinking also surrounds my head. It’s mainly because I care too much about what people will think and said, perhaps about private issues.
I know this is not good. But I don’t know what to do to overcome this. What I try is to read the Quran and maybe do something that can distract me.
I feel happy when I read some articles from a blog that stated, while single you’re free to do anything else such as studying abroad as high as possible. I believe that going abroad can increase my perspective about life, love and anything else. I hope my journey in this foreign country will bring me to that love.
I’d like to do many things, which is called multitasking. But in the end, I realized that it’s not too good because it will decrease the focus of what you’re doing. For me, it’s hard to keep on focus with thing I do, especially in the online working and online studying mode.
I hope during this time I can be a productive young scientist while working online and be a responsible person in my organisation. I have to busier myself to decrease the negative thinking that sometimes popped up in my mind. The message is everyone has their own time. I, 24 years old now in my second year of PhD and still struggling to find a soulmate. Friends of my age just get married and get work in a big company in Indonesia, the other is a housewife with 2 children. Of course many are a single, career woman.